Thursday, October 28, 2010

Lonely Ladybug

A few weeks ago I got a costume made for Sweet One and, thinking it was pretty cute, in my head I anticipated a lovely Thursday evening of Trick-or-Treating with her for the first time. (This town does things weird with the Trick-or-Treating happening on the Thursday before Halloween so that teachers don't have to deal with the kids on 'sugar highs'.) Things don't always work out as we plan when we're parents and this was definitely one of those. The moment I tried to put it on Sweet One, she hit the floor in a tantrum! I did manage to get the wings on her red jacket and so Big Love spent about half an hour taking her to a few houses. The best part was watching her run away from a house as quickly as she could so that she could follow her friends! I just chuckled as I handed out candy to those who stopped by!

So my costume may have to wait another year or perhaps it will always be the lonely ladybug who hoped to be someone's first Halloween costume.

On another note, the netbook seems to have survived the flood! I am so relieved.

Sunday, October 24, 2010

It was one of those days where I'm tired from waking up throughout the night but I was making the best of it. With the temperature being 60 degrees by as early as 10:00 this morning Sweet One got outside and we had a nice time walking up and down the street and then playing in the sandbox. We were able to Skype for the first time with my sister and her kids which was awesome. And then Sweet One knocked over a glass of water being she was trying to poke at the computer after I told her not to and the water went all over the netbook. Now it is one of those days where everything is melting down and I just want to cry. I wish I was one of the bloggers who mentions they're having a problem with something and voila! some company fixes it for them just because they know they'll get free advertising that way. Well, I'm not and I may be going without a netbook if this one dies. It was a nice 6 months of being technologically relevant.

Friday, October 22, 2010

First cold

Sweet One has her first cold. Now I realize how completely fortunate I am that in 21 months she has never been sick, save for a couple fevers, but it is never fun to see your child sick.

Mostly it has manifested itself with a runny nose and not being able to fall asleep on her own as well as constant waking during the night. The second day was her most irritable and at night she didn't sleep for more than 1.5 hours at a time which drove me nuts until I decided to bring her into the bed with us. I figure that it looked pretty cute with she and I curled up together in a full size, wrap around maternity pillow. While I was able to rest more than getting up constantly to comfort her, it was interesting trying to sleep with a toddler making me her sleeping surface.

Last night she surprised me by sleeping through the entire night - it was blissful - for the first time since we were on our vacation to the cabin. I'd been starting to worry that we were going to be entering a downhill spiral into months of no sleeping but thankfully Sweet One rescued me from that!

After rocking her to sleep for her naps and a good portion of her nights lately, I'd been feeling like it was going to become a pattern that I struggled to break. Tonight after I initially put her down for the night, she began to cry and scream. I let her cry for 5 minutes and then I checked on her. She settled down and so I left the room again to which she responded with more crying and screaming. I did about 10 minutes of yoga while she cried on and off and then checked on her again. Same thing happened - she settled, I left, she cried. I didn't have to go back in because she finally got herself to sleep but I feel like a complete asshole. I hate having to put her through that to try and prevent sleeping problems. Half an hour after she fell asleep I finished my yoga and cracked her door open just enough to hear her breathe. There was still the remnant of her crying so hard before (not quite sure how exactly to explain the sound but I'm sure any parent knows exactly what I am talking about; the little uneven exertion in her exhale). Right now I want to run upstairs and pick her up out of her crib and hold her, hoping she'll forgive me for putting her through that when she is still not 100%.

After nights of little sleep I am now trying to fight off an impending sinus infection - the way every bug I have to fight manifests itself. I will probably lose and am not looking for another round of amoxicillin while pregnant. Hopefully we'll get a good night sleep and I will feel a little better tomorrow.

Wednesday, October 20, 2010

Too many surprises in one day

I had an OB appointment today and for the past month I've been worrying about it because my previous experience with the new doctor was quite negative. I was nervous as we waited for him to come in because I was worried about having one appointment with him and then having to go out and fight for my right to have a doctor I was comfortable with. Little did I know that he was going to pull the rug right out from under my toes. Even Big Love was shocked. The doctor I saw today was completely unlike the doctor I had met once during my previous pregnancy and twice in the hospital. He was kind, personable and genuinely interested in getting to know us a bit in the short time allotted for these appointments. On top of it, he mentioned that should my placenta cooperate this time, protocol may be in place for me to have a VBAC if I so choose.

By the time I was about to leave this appointment I was nearly in tears, partially due to Sweet One being awake for 2 hours last night, because nothing in that appointment was what I expected. I had a doctor who I could possibly be ok with and the potential for a whole new way of thinking about giving birth this time. I can honestly say that I am still very sad about my previous doctor going on medical leave because I adored her and in my eyes no one will ever be as good as her.

I have so much to think about. It is insane how different my new doctor was at this appointment. In two weeks we'll have our ultrasound and see what the placenta is doing and then I can start to think about what I'd like to do delivery-wise. Although, I'm not sure I'd like to be one of the first people to have a VBAC at this hospital. Right now, I just need to go and watch some Parenthood and relax, turn off my brain and pray that Sweet One sleeps through the night. On top of all this, she has her first ever cold.

Saturday, October 9, 2010

Cold and Drizzly with a hint of cheesecake

We went to Keystone State Park on Monday and returned Friday. It's a great time of year to rent their modern cabins (or in any Pennsylvania State Park for that matter) because during the week they're freakin' cheap! One thing that can suck at this time of year is the weather.

We drove in drizzle and rain all the way, stopping in a city to get some supplies from Trader Joe's. After I rocked Sweet One to sleep (we had some sleeping issues while we were there), I found the silence from lack of computer and/or TV staggering. At the same time, I knew it would be good for me and my tendency to turn on the boob tube and disappear for an hour or so. Tuesday and Wednesday were also cold and drizzly. We were so desperate to get out of the cabin to entertain Sweet One that we hopped in the car Wednesday morning and went to the nearby Walmart!

Luckily we woke to blue skies and sun Thursday morning or I might have lost my mind. We went hiking and Sweet One climbed the trails to 250 feet higher in altitude than where we began. After this she made me carry her all the way down - Daddy could not help! - and proceeded to do everything in her power to fall asleep. I was successful and kept her awake but it did take some juggling! In the afternoon we went to the lakeshore and Sweet One filled as much time as she could throwing rocks into the lake. It was amazing how much she liked that.

Our moments of luxury were went Big Love and I ate one piece of cheesecake every night. Thanks to Trader Joe's and their Chocolate Dilemma we had a different flavor every night! My god was that cheesecake much better than we had anticipated.

Leaving Friday was bittersweet as the sun was out even stronger than Thursday but this body could not handle another night on that bed. It was wonderful to get away from everything and despite the shitty weather we're glad we went.

On Monday we go and sign the papers on our 2010 Rav4 that we ended up buying a month earlier than we expected because of a low interest rate. After stuffing our civic as full as we possibly could we know it is time to trade it in for something more spacious as our family gets bigger.